I CHEATED ON MY BF 3 TIMES & I DOUBT HE WILL EVER FORGIVE ME!!!!!!!!!?

My bf and I have been together for 6 yrs - we are 22. We love each other very much...but I messed up. He went out of town to visit family for a wk and I missed him really bad. I needed someone and my best guy friend was here for me. I was really vulnerable and he began kissing me. It led to heavy making out and he felt me up. He fingered me and I gave him a handjob and we...had sex. yeah, multiple times and my bf is still out of town. I've noticed (not to give too many details) but when my bf and I have sex, I don't get wet and have to use lube but when I had sex with this guy, I got extremely wet and didn't have to worry about lube. I realize this was just a fling but we did it multiple times (about 3) and I don't think my bf will ever forgive me. Once was bad enough. I kinda like the friend, I think but I LOVE my bf. We have dated throughout hs and college. Not many ppl can say that about a relationship. He has always stayed faithful to me and me to him...until now. I don't want this other guy. I want my bf, but he probably won't ever take me back. Should I just not tell him and act normal? HELP - thx

Your boyfriend should dump you and go for a girl who would actually be faithful to him.

U really shouldnt have done tht

You must be bored from being with the same person for so long and have needed to try something new and are staying with him subconsciously out of being afraid of taking the chance to break out and meet someone else who could be more right for you.  Why stay with someone who can't turn you on?  What about breaking up with him and cutting off from both of them and dating someone entirely different?

Just don't do it again next time, whatever happens.  Learn from it and forgive yourself.  Break things off in future before it gets to the point where you cheat.